I think I realize something. I only ever seem to want to write when I’m depressed. That seems to be a common thing now that I think about it. Lots of blogs online serve as little spots to vent. Sometimes these are maintained but often they eventually fall into disrepair and abandoned. I feel so anxious when I stumble across things like that. I think that’s what makes discovering old content so unnerving. It feels almost like that person is dead because they haven’t posted or have deleted the content. You might feel that too, wise person of the future. Rest assured through these words I am immortal as long as they exist. I appreciate your empathy. Lord knows I have worried myself endlessly on online others.
I think I am too negative sometimes. Gotta focus on what’s good in life. So, I found my old iPod Classic. I don’t think I’ve used it since 2015 so it is a time capsule in the best and worse ways. So much gold and so much cringe. What’s sad is there’s a lot of gold I’d like to retreive from it but can’t and also its disappeared online (the instrumental only version of Vernian Process’s Behold the Machine album. The instrumental version was given as a download to people who downloaded Glimmar’s Steampunk Texture Pack for Minecraft but is not available anywhere anymore.) If there is one speck of light, its all the stuff I was able to refind, even if I need to rebuy it. God bless the OCReMix and Dwelling of Duels site admins for keeping all this stuff up. I think I’m too anxious about not having
One somewhat obvious way to get around this would be to switch to streaming solutions. Then I wouldn’t need to constantly worry about hard drive failure (standard Seagate drives were not rated to host a Plex server on). However, licensing keeps me away from stuff like Netflix and Hulu because it seems like anytime I want to watch something on a streaming service, it has been removed to go to another one.
In other news, I want to learn Lua but I am lazy. I have read over 42 books this year so it hasn’t been a total loss. And! knocks on wood I haven’t gotten covid so I’m pretty damn lucky. I’ve got my core rules for Cyberpunk Red now and I’m currently preparing for online sessions.